I am writing to you at the lowest point in my life. The other week I noticed my ear was blocked and was slightly ringing, and I was concerned. I went to the doctors and he did a water syringe to get out the wax, which only made it worse. I’ve looked it up online, and this causes permanent tinnitus. Tinnitus being ringing in the ears. It’s already been a week and a half/two weeks with no sign of it improving. I am crying, sobbing and extremely angry all day and all night, I haven’t slept. I am distraught, knowing this ringing will never go away and I’m only 17. I finally figured out what I wanted to do for the rest of my life, and was finally content with myself, and my friendships. Now this happens. I am cursed for the rest of my life, no exaggerations. I know this may seem silly and an overreaction to some of you and I completely understand there are other terminal health issues out there but this is horrific. A constant high pitch in my right ear. There is no cure. There is no break. There is no recovery. This is it… this is what I have to live with for eternity. I want a fresh start with a new life with a new body so I can appreciate what I have before its gone. To all of you, I say start appreciating things you don’t usually acknowledge. Like how you can fall asleep in silence, having a quiet moment whilst reading a book, and I don’t even need to continue…. So here’s to prayers that a miracle (0.00000000001% possibility) will happen and this will go away. I doubt it will, I feel it in my soul. But if there is a god, I’ll get some relief one way or another.